Athene Numphe

I've gone to Comic Con two years in a row now, mostly to help out the Austin Browncoats. While I've enjoyed other events labeled as "con"s in the past, I find myself once again feeling awkward at Comic Con, even though I am surrounded by my peers. I finally figured out why.

The other cons I've gone to have been either panel/discussion or role playing based. At those cons, the main focus is to engage in conversation or games. If there are "celebrities" they are often authors who write things, usually things I really enjoy, so it is a pleasure to meet them.

Comic con is mostly vendors, actors from cult shows/movies, and comic artists. There are a few panels, but it's not the focus. While I enjoy looking at the art and the huge amounts of stuff there is for sale, I don't know most of the artists and I'm not a collector and don't have the money to buy all the things. As for the actors, do I really want to stand in line to say "I really like the work you did/I think you're cute/I dressed like your character once." Not really. I think that most of these people are just normal people who were doing a job. While it probably makes them feel warm and fuzzy to hear it, and the $$ the fans are paying for autographs doesn't hurt, they often look kind of bored. And I don't really know what to say to them.

I realized that they are not "my people" in the way that some of the actors/musicians/writers/etc who I know are nerds/geeks are. Those are the ones I'm much more likely to fan-girl over. Because they are part of my culture in a way that goes beyond just doing a job. They are the ones that I could have a conversation with that goes like this: Me, "Geek." Them, "Geek." Me, "Geek geek." Them, "Geek nerd geek." Which is why w00tstock will always be way more awesome for me than Comic Con.

That being said, I did pay $ to have a picture taken of LP in his Jayne hat with Adam Baldwin (see previous post). I figured that that was special.

I'm soaking wet!!! I was walking in the rain to work (well, from the parking garage). it was nice, but i wish it was lighter so i could have lifted my head up and really enjoyed it. there is nothing like been cleaned by Mother Nature :) I just wish I could have found my cloak this morning :(

If the idea of baths came from bathing in streams/rivers/ponds, where did the idea of showers come from? was it the rain or waterfalls? I want to say the rain, but it usually doesn't rain hard enough for a real cleansing shower (at least by my standards). hmm...it probably was both.

so, i have my adonis's e-mail address and my sis says he will be in Boston on saturday so I should e-mail him quickly. aaahhhhhhhhh. I don't know if i can. I want to. really badly. i probably will and it will come across as stupid, but hey, that's something. i hope he checks his e-mail a lot. my sis went out to dinner w/him and some other people last night (how i got the e-mail) she said he mentioned that the time he kissed me on the forehead was the first time he kissed a girl at least three times. I guess it ment a lot to him. why why why why why did i never do anything w/him??? oh yeah, b/c i was a scared freshman and he shrugged me off when i cornered him that one time. WHY DIDN'T I JOIN THE SCI-FI CLUB MY FIRST YEAR OF HS????????????? maybe i would have had a chance with him then! he wanted me to. I think i'll beat myself up over this one forever!!! damn it. well, we can't change the past. or our hearts.

in other news, kiten got spectre to climb more on the structure aerith built. he actually was climbing around on it on his own (and looked like he was going to pounce on Swan's head *G*). The D&D game last night went pretty well.

Ok, i'm going to e-mail my adonis now, before i think better of it!!